Working thru the tension

It’s not “When does this stop?” – it’s “When will I start?”

It’s been a while, too long yet againu, since I’d taken the time out of my day to sit to write a bit. What’s well-meaningness without followthrough? Intent without completion doesn’t really stand for much – “Oh, well, I’ve been saying I was gonna, and I was gonna, but, umm…”

Sometimes you just power thru things because you need to. Sometimes you procrastinate. Then you procrastinate more. Then the intent fades and morphs to something discarded. An idea dissipated into nothingness, like fog on the surface of a lake or smoke into a breeze.

Anxiety’s been on the climb again, so I against my better judgment, I wait. I wait for an opportunity to sit with my thoughts in a way that compels me to translate these images that loiter in my head into something tangible – on a screen or otherwise. It all begins somewhere, sometime.

Verbalizing things brings some peace in mind when I’m able to part with a piece of mind. Ideally, speech designed to reach into the intimate moments of heights and the lowness of a steep decline. Catharsis in the beauty of fruition – that climactic moment where I reach the intended peak and no ideation of weakness held onto.

There I go, getting overly wordy for the simple fact I haven’t gotten a word typed in months. Nothing exceeds like excess – nothing breeds contempt like self sabotage.

Onto the visuals.

Reworked UNH Champion reverse weave crewneck: desaturated with bleach and internally patched with tapestry.
Backside of Reworked UNH Champion reverse weave crewneck: desaturated with bleach and internally patched with tapestry.
Purpura denim: extensively distressed and overdyed denim with ankle donut buttons for closure.
Reworked Air Jordan 1 Mid: bleached to desaturate original color; overdyed with multiple colors.
Reworked Air Jordan 1 Mid: bleached to desaturate original color; overdyed with multiple colors.
Headcrack: hand painted skull with acrylic paint atop overdyed Levi’s trucker jacket.
Headcrack jacket on body in fall.
Scratched surface denim: overdyed and extensively surface roughened Levi’s 514 with released hems.
SLIME camo overshirt: bleached and refill dyed vintage Levi’s overshirt. Includes Vietnam-era USATC Armor patch, Japanese paisley patch, and recut and sewn woody camo cargo pocket.
Metathesiophobia: 3/4 tie-dyed hoodie paired with 1/4 bleached black hoodie. Asymmetrical cuts.
Poisoned Grapes: heavily distressed and repaired Levi’s trucker jacket.
Edited for Content: ruined and repaired SSUR Comme des Fuckdown hoodie; ruined print, over stitched, backed with tonal tapestry.
Not Needles: Ralph Lauren McMeel plaid buttonup with replaced button placket and pocket, patched red paisley bandana.
Not Needles: Ralph Lauren McMeel plaid buttonup with replaced button placket and pocket, patched red paisley bandana.
Counterculture Collegiate: a nod to 60’s collegiate style, paired with hippie culture. Overbleached cardigan.
Counterculture Collegiate: a nod to 60’s collegiate style, paired with hippie culture. Overbleached cardigan. Picture “college dropout turned hippie”.

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